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a fever wind and a match in hand
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| it's about fucking time i updated this thing |
[20 Jul 2004|11:50pm] |
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she thinks I walk on water, she thinks I hung the moon
she tells me every morning they just don't make men like you
she thinks I've got it together, she swears I'm as tough as nails
but I dont have the heart to tell her she don't know me that well
she don't know how much I need her, she don't know I'd fall apart
without her kiss, without her touch, without her faithful loving arms
she don't know that it's all about her, she don't know I cant live without her
she's my world, she's my everything
and she thinks she needs me
sometimes she cries on my shoulder when she's lying next to me
but she don't know that when I hold her
that she's really holding me
and the funny thing is
she thinks she's the lucky one
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[26 Apr 2004|09:26pm] |
I've been waiting up for you to rescue me
To come around and cover everything
I’m relying on my best memory
To breathe for me, breathe for me
So much better than all this, all of this...
I'm so tired of singing sad songs in my head
But I can’t find enough of anything to drown out what you said
And I can still smell summer on your skin
And I can still remember giving in
Wrapped all up in your hips, and in your sheets
It felt great falling, great falling...
I feel so faded, so far gone...
Nothing surprises me anymore
I'm not much better than all of this
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| Don't hold your breath because you’ll only make things worse |
[08 Apr 2004|12:37am] |
Get up, get up, come on, come on, lets go
There's just a few things I think that you should know
Those words at best were worse than teenage poetry
Fragment ideas and too many pronouns
Stop it, come on you're not making sense now
You can't make them want you
They're all just laughing
Literate and stylish
Kissable and quiet
Well that's what girls dreams are made of
And that's all you need to know
You have it or you don't
This is me with the words on the tip of my tongue
And my eye through the scope
down the barrel of a gun
Remind me not to ever act this way again
This is you trying hard to make sure that you're seen
With a girl on your arm
and your heart on your sleeve
Remind me not to ever think of you again
This is me with the words on the tip of my tongue
And my eye through the scope
down the barrel of a gun
Remind me not to ever act this way again
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[04 Apr 2004|12:04am] |
because all I want to be is the minute that you hold me in
when I'm all that you waited for
time slips to nothing and I'm better than I've ever been
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| good news for people who love bad news |
[17 Mar 2004|01:50pm] |
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Bad news comes
Don't you worry even when it lands
Good news will work its way to all them plans
We both got piled on sadly the same day
Well we'll float on, good news is on the way
Alright already, we'll all float on okay
Don't you worry, we'll all float on
And we'll all float on
Alright already, we'll all float on alright
Don't worry, even if things end up a bit too heavy
We'll all float on alright
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[06 Feb 2004|12:58pm] |
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5 am, undressed
In your static, in your mess
I don't need any new voices
I'm thick enough with superstitions and choices
But I'm weak when you miss me
My ears are always open to your laments
My will, always weak for your advances
I'll play the maid and clean up the mess
And I'll lie until I believe
So here are my ears again
And here are my arms
And here are my hopes again
Just please keep coming back
I spent days stupid nailed to your floor
And I spent nights pushed against you trying to keep warm
I remember your hands and how easily it seemed to me
They could rip me open
And if I told you that I'm sorry
Would you tell me that you were wrong
Or would you hold me down forever
If I came to you for answers
So here are my ears again
And here are my arms
And here are my hopes again
Just please keep coming back
I'm dazzled by glamour and camera angles
The drama and swagger of fools
Sacrificed beauty once to chase after their parade
Spent my morning after crawling back to you
I wanna trade in these wings;
they don't work like yours do.
So here are my ears again
And here are my arms
And here are my hopes again
Just please keep coming back
Prove to me
I'm tired of words, they don't ever mean a thing
And I'll be here, wasted
I was never any good alone
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[29 Jan 2004|12:15am] |
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One day... I'll get back to posting in this thing. I swear.
Until then, listen to this song until your ears fall off.
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[08 Dec 2003|09:52pm] |
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Please take me by the hand
It's so cold out tonight
I'll put blankets on the bed
I won't turn out the light
Just don't forget to think about me
And I won't forget you
I'll write you once a week she said
Why does it feel the same
To fall in love or break it off
And if young love is just a game
Then I must have missed the kick off
Don't depend on if me to ever follow through on anything
But I'd go through hell for you and
I haven't been this scared in a long time
And I'm so unprepared so here's your valentine
A bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody
This world's an ugly place, but you're so beautiful to me
I'll think about the times
She kissed me after class
And she put up with my friends
I acted like an ass
I'd ditch my lecture to watch the girls play soccer
Is my picture still hanging in her locker?
I haven't been this scared in a long time
And I'm so unprepared so here's your valentine
A bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody
This world's an ugly place, but you're so beautiful
I haven't been this scared in a long time
And I'm so unprepared so here's your valentine
A bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody
This world's an ugly place, but you're so beautiful
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[08 Dec 2003|03:15pm] |
September never stays this cold
Where I come from and you know
I'm not one for complaining
But I love the way you roll
Excuses off the tip of your tongue
As I slowly quietly fall apart
I said this won't mean a thing come tomorrow
And that's exactly how I'll make it seem
Because I'm still not sleeping
Thinking I've crawled home from worse than this
I'm running out of sympathy
I never said I'd take this laying down
She says, "C'mon, c'mon
Let's just get this over with."
She says, "C'mon, c'mon
Let's just get this over with."
And I never said I'd take this laying down
I've crawled home from worse than this
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[21 Nov 2003|01:46am] |
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I will never bother you
I will never promise to
I will never follow you
I will never bother you
Never speak a word again
I will crawl away for good
I will move away from here
You won't be afraid of fear
No thought was put in to this
I always knew it would come to this
Things have never been so swell
I have never failed to fail
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| that's a bitch |
[15 Nov 2003|02:25am] |
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If that's all you will be, you'll be a waste of time
You've dreamed a thousand dreams, none seem to stick in your mind
Two points for honesty
It must make you sad to know that nobody cares at all
I want to be where I've never been before
I want to be there and then I'd understand
Know I'm right and do it right, could I get to be like that
I'll know what I don't know with nothing more to gain
Will I get better or stay the same
I find I always move to slowly
Can't lift a finger, can't change my mind
I never knew it until someone told me that...
If that's all you will be, you'll be a waste of time
You've dreamed a thousand dreams, none seem to stick in your mind
Two points for honesty
It must make you sad to know that nobody cares at all
And all the people who've seen it all before
And all the people who really understand
Know they're right, and have done it right, could I get to be like that
I'll know what I don't know, it's harder everyday
Can't lift a finger, can't hurt a fly
I've found I always move too slowly
One things for certain, I'm insecure
I never knew it until someone told me that....
If that's all you will be, you'll be a waste of time
You've dreamed a thousand dreams, none seem to stick in your mind
Two points for honesty
It must make you sad to know that nobody cares at all
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[10 Nov 2003|03:17pm] |
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They tied off your arms
With all their pretty charms
And the same bad lines always get you
And you hate the way
They wash you down
And summer hums heavy now...
Still you bolded all your best words
So they'd have something to wrap
Their mouths around
Show me how pretty the world is
Because I envy the way that you move
Show how me how pretty the world is
Because I want something just a little bit louder
All spun awake
Twisted in the heat
You're always burning up so bright
When there's someone there by your side
Well just take me home
Because I'm a mess enough to clean
And I'll lie until I believe
Show me how pretty the world is
Because I envy the way that you move
Show me how pretty the world is
Because I want something just a little bit louder
Show me how pretty the world is
Because you're brilliant when you try
Show me how pretty the whole world is tonight
I never thought that I could be who I am
I never thought that I could see where I was
I never thought that all this was just wasn't me
I always thought that all this was could never be
I never thought that I could be who I am
I never thought that I could see where I was
I never thought that all this was just wasn't me
I always thought I'd wait here for you
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[06 Nov 2003|01:42pm] |
I've been running away for far too long
Afraid of what I know is soon to come
I may not be much of an example right now
But I can give you all of my knowledge on how
to get along in this place
Right now all I can say
Is that I will do the best that I can
to be a good example of man
I know one day that you`ll understand
You deserve the best that I am
It's so hard to think about when I was child
So angry at life, I blamed the world for such a long long time
But things happened so quickly
Some people just go
I needed answers to heal me
I wanted to know how to get by
And now its my turn to say
Is that I will do the best that I can
to be a good example of man
I know one day that you`ll understand
You deserve the best that I am
This is all for you
Everything in this world
Everything in my world
Everything in your world
Things won't always go right in this life
There's always changes
We'll make it
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[29 Oct 2003|08:31pm] |
I waited for you
I died inside my own head
And I'd die again for you
I'm faded and tired
Completely uninspired
And I'd die again for you
So kill me with the love that you won't give to me
And pack the wound with salt
I want to feel it bleed
I'm searching for reasons
To keep away the demons
And I'd die again for you
I wish you were near me
Could feel it when you hear me say
I'd die again for you
So kill me with the love that you won't give to me
And pack the wound with salt
I want to feel it bleed
You wanted me to crawl so now I'm on my knees
Why's it always have to be me
That's always left out to burn and
I'll never learn
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| can't really relate to it, but i love these lyrics |
[18 Oct 2003|11:33pm] |
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A long December and there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can't remember the last thing that you said as you were leaving
Now the days go by so fast
And it's one more day up in the canyons
And it's one more night in Hollywood
If you think that I could be forgiven...I wish you would
The smell of hospitals in winter
And the feeling that it's all a lot of oysters, but no pearls
All at once you look across a crowded room
To see the way that light attaches to a girl
And it's one more day up in the canyons
And it's one more night in Hollywood
If you think you might come to California...I think you should
Drove up to Hillside Manor sometime after two a.m.
And talked a little while about the year
I guess the winter makes you laugh a little slower,
Makes you talk a little lower about the things you could not show her
And it's been a long December and there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can't remember all the times I tried to tell my myself
To hold on to these moments as they pass
And it's one more day up in the canyon
And it's one more night in Hollywood
It's been so long since I've seen the ocean...I guess I should
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| not what you think |
[14 Oct 2003|12:30am] |
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I'm not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone
But I have a light
The day is done
But I'm having fun
I think I'm dumb
Or maybe just happy
Think I'm just happy
My heart is broke
But I have some glue
Help me inhale
And mend it with you
We'll float around
And hang out on clouds
Then we'll come down
And have a hangover
Have a hangover
Skin the sun
Fall asleep
Wish away
The soul is cheap
Lesson learned
Wish me luck
Soothe the burn
Wake me up
I'm not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone
But I have a light
My day is done
But I'm having fun
I think I'm dumb
Maybe just happy
Think I'm just happy
I think I'm dumb
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| i guess this is another 'moving on and growing up' moment? |
[03 Oct 2003|08:45pm] |
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so sorry, it's over
so sorry, it's over
there's so much more that I wanted and
there's so much more that I needed and
time keeps moving on and on and on
soon we'll all be gone
let's take some time to talk this over
you're outta line and rarely sober
we can't depend on your excuses
because in the end it's fucking useless
you can only lean on me for so long
bring the ship about to watch a friend drown
sitting out on a ledge, begged you to come down
you can only lean on me for so long
I remember shots without a chaser
absent minded thoughts now you're a stranger
cover up the scars, put on your game face
left you in a bar to try and save face
you can only lean on me for so long
bring the ship about to watch a friend drown
sitting out on a ledge, begged you to come down
you can only lean on me for so long
so sorry, it's over
so sorry, it's over
there's so much more that I wanted and
there's so much more that I needed and
time keeps moving on and on and on
soon we'll all be gone
man on a mission
can't say I miss him around
insider information
hand in your resignation
loss of a good friend
best of intentions I found
tight lipped procrastination
yeah, later... see you around
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[01 Oct 2003|02:38pm] |
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It seems like every day's the same
and I'm left to discover on my own
It seems like everything is gray
and there's no color to behold
They say it's over and I'm fine again
Try to stay sober feels like I'm dying here
And I am aware now
how everything's gonna be fine
One day too late, I'm in hell
I am prepared now
seems everyone's gonna be fine
One day too late; just as well
I feel the dream in me expire
and there's no one left to blame it on
I hear you label me a liar
because I can't seem to get this through
You say it's over, I can sigh again
Why try to stay sober when I'm dying here
And I am aware now
how everything's gonna be fine
One day too late, I'm in hell
I am prepared now
seems everyone's gonna be fine
One day too late; just as well
And I'm not scared now
I must assure you
you're never gonna get away
And I'm not scared now
And I'm not scared now
I am aware now
how everything's gonna be fine
One day too late, I'm in hell
I am prepared now
seems everyone's gonna be fine
One day too late; just as well
I am prepared now
seems everything's gonna be fine for me
For me, for me, for myself
I am prepared now for myself
I am prepared now, and I am fine again
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[27 Sep 2003|11:56pm] |
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I saw a star beneath the stairs
glowing through the melting walls
Who will be the first to begin their fall?
Or will we become one?
Am I the star beneath the stairs?
Am I a ghost upon the stage?
Am I your anything?
I saw a star beneath the stairs
glowing bright before descent
And in the morning there is nothing left
but what's inside of me
Am I the star beneath the stairs?
Am I a ghost upon the stage?
Am I your anything?
And I don't want to die tonight
will you believe in me?
And I don't want to fall into the light
Will you wish upon?
Will you walk upon me?
I don't want to die tonight
Will you believe in me tonight?
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[27 Sep 2003|07:07pm] |
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These days with the world getting colder
she spends more time sleeping over
than I planned
Tonight were gonna order in
drinking wine and watching CNN
It's dark I know but then again
it's the brightest thing I got
Because I'm covered in rain
I'm covered in rain
From fireworks to fire places
Summer stored in far away places
Now we're people watching other people, people watching you and I
Standing by the missing signs at the CVS by the checkout line
Put your quiet hands in mine
Because you're the brightest thing I got
When I'm covered in rain
It's alright
If you don't want to go on
It's alright
If you don't want to be alone
It's alright
If you don't want to go home
I understand
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